The De3p oF My h3arT..

2007-11-03T13:17:00.000+08:00

hmm...i long time din update my blog already neh...until it become inactive already...im feel not really happy recently...so i decided to reactive tis blog and write out what i felt...-.-

finally i enter university already...as what my mom wish...but im so stress in uni...haiz...in hostel all my room mates are malay *sign* they are so so so dirty...can't tahan it...but luckily im not always stay in there...and im having my final ecam now...dunno hows my result would be...i think will be quite poor...cause my mid term's result is not good...and during final i cant even finish lecturer gave de notes...haiz... -.-

last nite i accident made my pig pig angry....im so useless...always made him angry...why am i so childish??why i always like tat??im so regret...everytime he angry then i will be turn to moody,no appetide to eat...even will not feel sleepy...so funny hor why he angry i will be like tat?sure got ppl laugh at me de...but i cant control myself...he angry i will be scared...i scare he wanna break off with me...if he really do that...then hows my life would be in the future??i sure will be alone and nobody listen to me and protect me... -.-

2006-11-12T22:04:00.000+08:00

男生的爱只有一次，每一个男生都是这样嗎?他可以对每个女生说“我爱你”，但他一辈子只会爱上一个人，只有一个。当这段感情失败后，他会把这段记忆放在心里，把这个女生放在心底。原来一个男生可以把很多女生放在心里，但一辈子只有一个女生可以在他心底。无论他以后会跟再多的女生相处，他都会清楚的知道，自己最爱的是谁。男生的爱一辈子只会付出一次......

2006-10-28T01:49:00.000+08:00

*sigh*...u noe wat....im moody now... -.- feel wanna cry..wanna find somebody chat wif me....but all gone...y everytime im moody then nobody online? =.= well....its ok...going now...hope tomolo i will be better... -.-

2006-10-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

hmm......second trial was ended~!!my result....errmm....not rili good....ahahahhha...but its ok....as long as i do reivsion i think my stpm result will be ok... :) started tomolo there is 1 week holiday neh...so syok...can stay at home....but not to play....is for do revision...coz stpm is approaching ma...1 months left neh....dunno i can finish my revision or not...hope can lor....hmm....ok...its time to continue my revision....all my frens add oil neh....but don study too hard o....muz take care also....sick jor can sit the exam well also one...if too stress then do something to release it...remember we have to study smart but not study hard~ ^.^

2006-09-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

finally im 19 years old already~ ^^ im dai gor lui already lur.....who else call my kids again i sure kick them far far... :P hmmm.....my 19 years old bday nth special also....juz celebrate wif my family n my frens gave my presents...but tat kinda happy also lar... ^^

second trial is approaching neh....next week then start....so scare o....i haven start prepare neh...hehe....still everyday online ,watch tv n sleeping...im going to fail the subjects again....but hope tis time wont fail so teruk lar... XD

2006-09-16T01:29:00.000+08:00

ou....i 1 month din update my blog neh...hehe.....kinda busy neh...stpm is approaching....have to start prepare for it already.. XD feel stress neh....but luckily my frens n family is still wif me... ^^ i wonder y we haven get the stpm time table eh???the gorvernment should be give us very early one....the time table can help us in dividing the time during do revision....hmm....ok...going now...bye bye.....

2006-08-14T20:26:00.000+08:00

juz now i finally went to see doctor already.....the doctor checked me....n....im ok~!!!im fine~!! ^^ im so happy neh....now i no need to worry bout my health already...im juz hormone imbalance...XD have to eat more n sleep early....hehe....thx to those ppl who care bout me...im so happy to noe u guys~! ^^ thx kay,thx jerry,thx ben ben,thx kiwi,the most important....thx mummy~!! ^^ i love u all~!! muaks muaks....ok...its time to study...bye~!

2006-07-30T01:48:00.000+08:00

my first trial is coming eh....i think i have to start prepare for it....i did bet wif ben ben...if i get top 6 then he bought me a lolipop....but i noe tis is impossible...but i still wanna play wif him...lolz...it is fun to play wif them....can release out my stress... ^^ i finally decide i wan study wat course in uni...tats consider is my dream also...so now i have to work harder to achieve it....i hope it is not too late... XD

2006-07-22T21:08:00.000+08:00

grrrrr.......im sick already~!!!flu o.....i hate flu the most but flu always come to me....wat lar.... =.=' my sick getting serious.....today whole body sakit o....sakit tulang... >.< poor me....my mom call me help her mop the floor but i no energy to mop....lolz....when i mop the floor like orang mati...lolz...till now im still not feeling very good lor....but dunno wats wrong....cant talk....juz whole body felt not song....cant imagine tomolo i will b how....im gonna die soon... XD

yesterday i went see gary cao eh....he handsome lor...who said he is not handsome??the throw the poster during the concert...noe wat...the poster is ngam ngam throw to my place lor...hit my face also....but kena ppl rampas also.... grrrrr......

first trial coming eh....but im not yet prepare.....sick jor some more...lagi no mood to prepare it o.... >.< i hope everything will b ok in the exam....

2006-07-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

ahhh....finally my comp is came back to me~~!!i miss my comp so much neh...^^ but used my dad a lot of money to fix it...pai seh neh... =.=

i get my MUET result already....really get band 3 only....=.= should i resit it???so fan o....actuallyt i nyaris nyaris get band 4 one bah..ngiao....apa lar....trial exam coming also....*phew* i think i have tp gambateh neh....last sunday i accidently saw my mom's face got many kedut o...at tat moment i only realise tat my parents rili old already.....feel soli to them o...they so old jor still have to work so hard... -.-

2006-07-08T00:38:00.000+08:00

hmm....there is many things inside my heart eh...but i dunno should tell who???altough i found someone tat i can tell...but how should i start?? -.- fan fan fan..everyday also fan....today lagi dunno wat im doing....till my fren also ask me y im looks like got a bit weird weird...hmm....wats the matter wif me???anyone can b my counselor???

2006-07-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

aih...tis few rili not in mood to do everything eh....everything seems like goes not rili smooth...very fan o... -.- i wonder y my mom still wanna keep scold me...made me more fan only...*sigh* she scold me is still ok...but she don let my explain or say out my opinion....tat is rili not reasonable...while is she scolding me and i wanna try to explain...then she will call me to shut up... -.- couldnt i speak something?? ppl said parents will always know their child...but y my parents not....they never think at my side...they juz wan me to do wat they think are rite...but did they ever think that tat is fair to me??can i do those thing tat i like...?*sigh* i feel wanna cry now....cry cry cry and cry~!! isnt it good if im not on tis world again...i no need to worry everything...

2006-06-20T22:33:00.000+08:00

i wonder why most of the kkhs's teachers are so mean??they don help the students one eh...very 38 some more....shit....what they said sometimes very hurt one eh...student also is human eh...they also got feel one eh...cannot juz simlpy scold by the teachers one eh...don they know tat will hurt the student?if there is a teacher treat ther child like tat...wat do they think??if they are scold by a teacher like a shit...wat is their feeling???i think when a student failed the exam...teacher should talk something good to galak the student...but not talk those rubbish tat will hurt the student...i think like tat will make the student lost confidence on tat subject....

im the one who lost confidence in my bio subject....n give up tat subject already...juz now when i went find my bio teacher i tell her my situation....other teacher also talk some rubbish....after i heard those teachers said i rili wanna cry...tats very hurt.... -.- my bio teacher also never believe in me one...everytime i told her i did do my revision n memories all the things...but when the exam is started...all those thing will be get lost from my brain.....tats y i will get a poor result...but she don wanna believe me....i wonder y she don wanna believe me???am i looks like love to lie ppl???she is rili hurt me...now i rili don have any confidence tat i can enter uni...im feel so sorry to my parents....they owez wish me can get a good result...but i everytime let them disappointed... -.- when i saw my frens get good result....i something will be jealous on them....no matter how hardworking am i....i will cant get good result... -.- im so stupid...im the stupiest ppl on this world...i am also a terrible n horrible person on this world...

2006-06-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

deng deng....actually nth to write..but im do my revision till very bored already....tats y come here see see n look look n also drop something in here... XD tomolo gonna play those juniors....muahahahahaha...very happy...i wanna play them till they sot sot.... wakakakakaka...

going now...bye bye...keke~

2006-06-15T23:17:00.000+08:00

today's weather not rili good eh...early in the morning then start rain already....kinda heavy oso...whole day cant see the sun...juz like my heart...my heart was also raining....it cant see the sun for a long time already...will it feel bored wif the raining day??or it already get used of it...i think if one day got chance....it sure hope can see the sun...the sun tat can shine all the ppl...the sun tat can made every ppl happy...juz now i asked my best fren izzit im changed a lot....then she said yes...oh gosh....i changed...!!!she said i changed to like to think a lot...yea...mayb she is rite...im rili owez think bout many things...tats y these few days i cant sleep well n feel moody...i was trying to make myself busy n forget bout the problem...but i noe tat is not a good way to solve the problems...but at least i no need to face it now....im scare to face it... XD

my stress gettin more and more...it is normal to have stress...everybody oso have stress...but...im kinda not rili noe to handle it....and i think my parents and my family oso din notice bout my problems...they owez juz a lil thing happen then angry or mengamuk....like i din help my mom...then she will scold me...and u can heard the furniture bang by her...very funny huh??they like to talk bout money in front of me...i hate to heard tat actually....coz everytime they oso talk bout worry no money to pay the loan...tis n tat....aggh....im tired wif tis....i thinking should i go work after my stpm or continue it to uni??if i go uni...can they affort it??but if i straight away go work after stpm....how much is my salary??i should go where work??wat should i work as???oh gosh....tis is very annoying....my bro not sure next year he wanna continue his study to form 6 or college....if he wanna go college....sure my parents have to pay the expensive fee for him...if i go uni and plus the home loan some more....omg....that is very heavy to them...my parents are old already...haiz...

2006-06-14T20:48:00.000+08:00

今天心情不太好耶!!我有一个朋友因为一些小事情而生气我了....甚至骂我'terrible'...他不知那句话伤我有多深吗?他的一举一动使到我很痛心...为何每次都要我先低头?难道他们可以拿我在乎他们的权力而胡乱对我发脾气吗?这样对我公平吗?或许他说的对我是一个 terrible的人...不知是他变了还是我变了...我想我已经没有面目跟他们交朋友了... -.- 朋友们如果我以前做过对不起或伤害了你们的事,我在此向你们说声抱歉...请你们原谅我巴!我并不是故意要伤害你们的....抱歉真的很抱歉..... -.-

2006-06-14T00:04:00.000+08:00

sch holiday had over eh....today i get back my exam papers...hmm....the result not rili good eh...but still pass lar....i think i fail 2 subjects only... XD compare to last test...it is much much better....coz last test i had failed all my subjects...hehe...

these few day i cant sleep eh....shi mian o...altought im very tired....still cant sleep one eh...mayb is too stress jor... >.<>.< anybody can teach me cheer ppl up geh skill?i wanna learn it eh...i dont hope my fren owez like tat...i wan them happy happy...~owez moody not good eh...anyway...i hope my fren who got problem can tell me..n i will try my best to help u... ^^ love u all~ muakss ^^

2006-06-04T23:47:00.000+08:00

doink...today is sunday....i went shopping wif my family....i bought quite many things eh...then 4.00++pm only had my lunch... XD my mom tonite din cook dinner eh..they eat goh zong as dinner....but i din eat....an apple as my dinner tonite...hehe....but gastric...suddenly feel moody too....but when i wan find somebody chat wif me..all gone... -.- i feel wanna cry now...am i rili very annoying??am i owez bothering ppl??? >.< i rili like to pretend meh???i am a cheap girl???sometimes i pretend juz dont wan they worry ma...don they understand me???is tis oso wrong???it is unfair to me....it was like i do anything oso wrong.... -.-

2006-06-02T01:26:00.000+08:00

juz now i had read a story....it can said is a novel...an online novel...coz it is very very very long eh...who interest in it can go tis website

http://myweb.hinet.net/home8/q030723087/feeling2

but tats a chinese story...the writer write it in chinese...so it is only for those who noe chinese....

well...yesterday nite i dreamed....it can said is a nightmare...i dreamed when i get back my exam paper....all the answer are wrong....*sigh* wat i have to do if it is really happen??should i cry???if tat rili happen i dont think i dare to talk to my frens and my family again....i feel shame on me....y ppl study and i oso study...ppl can pass it and i fail it???*sigh* i dont wan be pandang rendah eh...but i rili already tried my best in it.... -.- somebody help me...last time ppl told me study form 6 very hard one....but i dont believe...i tot it is only like study form 5....but now i noe...it is rili hard...study form 6 is very stress...im worry bout my stpm result now....will i fail in stpm???if i failed it how???go college???but college's fee very expensive....i don think my parents can effort it... -.- i cant think bout my future now...i cant see anything bout my future...my future is bright or dark??wats my ambitious???my family keep ask me...after stpm wanna take wat course...but everytime i oso cant answer their question...*sigh*

2006-06-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

wa....holilday very bored eh....nth to do one.... >.< wanna do revision but kinda no mood...coz juz finish exam...feel wanna let my brain rest a while....hehe...

hmmm.....juz now i checked my mail...then somebody wrote something bout me at lovehappen there....erm...tat was something like testi....here is wat he wrote :
[wat makes her great.... she is rili concern about her frens...rili care about others...n dun like to hurt ppl (internalie)... im sure.. if she got bf.. she will nver giv e disappointment.. coz..in my mind.. she is a good girl (sincerely) what's she rili like....? hmm... well..i dun know how to say this..lol..but.. at least i said about the past 3laine...:) have a nice day!]
*sigh* wat do he mean by the 'past elaine'...?did i changed already??did i changed to a bad girl, not concern bout by frens, not care bout others, n like to hurt ppl??? *sigh* i noe i shouldn't care wat he said...but....i still dont understand y he wanna said 'past elaine'... -.-

actually recently there are many things bothering me....but i din told my frens...hehe....coz i dont wanna bother them too...they got their own problem....i already gave them many trouble....so i dont wan do it anymore... XD thanz for ur hands while im in trouble my frens....love u all owez..muaks... ^^

2006-05-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

hmm.....im very hate those gila de fans one eh....wat oso talk bout their idol....but one of my best fren dunno since when oso be like tat already...*sigh* dont she noe idol juz an idol???we never can get him one eh...we can like him or love him....but dont too over wat.... -.-

my mom finally come back from sdk already... ^^ means i no need do house chores already~~~yay~~ ^^juz now my bro potong manggo to me eat eh...very touching o... lolz...

2006-05-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

grr....y my cough recover already but now come back again???it juz recover not more than 1 day eh.... *sigh*... -.- now im damn bad mood....din eat my dinner tonite...no mood to eat....i noe tat is not good....but im rili no mood...if let my mom noe it...my mom sure will scold me one...well...izzit go watch movie wif me is wasting her time???or go out wif me is not fun or she dont even wanna go out wif me???everytime she oso said jealous those ppl can go out....but when i call her out she said dont wan...*sigh* wat she is thinking??? i rili hope can go out wif her ler....rili long time din go out wif her....but y she is like tat???keep reject my invitation...i noe her parents is controlling her...i oso understand....but i think a few month then go watch a movie wif me oso can gua....her parents not tat soi i think....aiks....no use to blame other ppl....mayb the problem is on me.... -.-

2006-05-26T23:58:00.000+08:00

yay...finally im finish exam already... ^^ holiday also started~!!i can relax relax a bit...but still have to do the biology report...so sad...haiz....today is my sch celebrate teacher's day eh....upper 6 got presentation....choir eh....lolz....im involve in it...damn malu eh... >.<

juz now when watch over the hedge wif jerry n kay eh....dunno y while we on the way go home...i got a feel like kay n jerry is my dad n mum ler... ^^" tat was like daddy and mummy bring a daughter go gai gai eh...lolz...very warm....~!!everytime i go out wif jerry oso feel very song de...tats y i like to go out wif him...hehe...^^ we went tj aru watch stars ler....so song o...hehe....but got many doggie at there....im scare ler....scare they will come bite me...hehe...got many mosquitor oso...lolz.....i killed a mosquitor at there~!!so geng...^^" we at tj aru there talk talk n watch star...very enjoy...rili very enjoy....i like tat feel...hope i can stop the time at tat moment.... :P

2006-05-22T18:27:00.000+08:00

hmm....cheating is good or bad??if it is bad ...y still got a lots of ppl cheating...??they very brave one eh...can take a ppl's whole paper then copy it....-.- well...mayb tis is the way tat can let them get a good result....but is it proud??i dont think so eh....every ppl oso hope to get a good result n let their parents happy...but if their parents noe they get such good result coz of cheating will their parents happy n proud to them??i don think so eh....their parents sure will feel shame to them...and becoz of cheating...they can get a very good kedudukan in the class...*sigh* tis is not fair to those din cheat's student eh...dont they feel cheating in the exam is lying theirselve??if for last time...i sure will follow they cheating....but now...i even felt cheating very bothering....while u asking other ppl answer,u will disturb tat ppl to answer their paper oso...their answer is not 100% right one....y dont juz do urself...if it is wrong...let it be lar...we have learn from wrong ma....i think no ppl on tis world never do anything wrong...

2 days to go then i finish exam...yay~!! ^^ but dunno hows my result ler...?hmm...sure very worst again...aiks....nevermind lar...tis is not stpm oso...as long as i preapred for the stpm n get a good result in stpm tat is good enuf...!!got to go study now...tomolo physics paper 2 eh... sure die...>.<

2006-05-21T22:56:00.000+08:00

today is my dad's birthday eh...^^ early in the morning i had said 'happy birthday' to him jor...then he told us tat celcom oso got call him n say happy birthday to him...lolz...celcom so cute eh...y digi dont have geh..?we sing birthday song to my dad oso eh...sing it inside the car...lolz...other ppl sure feel weird coz we clap clap our hands while singing the song....then juz now we gave my dad a big big surprise...we bought him a birthday cake...lolz...

hmm.....juz now i finally saw my bro's gf....saw her when we are having our breakfast....tat girl got a bit chubby chubby one eh...but not rili pretty...hmm....well....got to go do revision now...!!still have 3 days to go then my exam is over~~!!!then i can relax relax... ^^ bye bye~~

2006-05-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

dunno y this few day im very moody o...i can be from very happy then change to very very very moody for no reasons.....wat happened to me???am i sick???i dont wan tp be like tat ler...tat is not me... -.- i am a happy girl eh...y i suddenly will like tat one??? now i do everything oso not rili got mood ler... >.< help~~

tomolo is mother's day eh...hehe...erm...i was like nth to post here...tats all...bye bye~~~happy mother's day~!

I LOVE U MUMMY~muaks...

2006-05-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

i owez tell my frens tat dont do those things that will made them regret....but i owez do the things that will made myself regret...-.-i feel like im a stupid...call ppl don do but do myself pula...when my frens got problems...i gave them many advice....and try to help them solve it...but when i got problems...i cant solve it....im a failure ppl....can solve ppl's problem but cant solve mine... >.< i dont wan to b like tat...last few day i finally finished muet exam...my speaking worst....hope my group's mark will not b affected by me.... -.- sch's exam coming ler....next monday...so scare...hope tis time wont fail all subject again...hehe

2006-05-04T00:00:00.000+08:00

hmmm....last few day been scold by a si ham chung n betrayed by a ppl eh...so so so angry... >.< dunno y tat ppl will go tell tat ham chung bout we kacau him...don she use her brain to think??actually is tat ham chung cheat me first eh...tats y i play him back... :p aiks....nvm lar...all the things already past...juz let it b a bad memory IN HERE....don stay in my mind...annoy me only...hehe...

2006-04-25T00:15:00.000+08:00

today seems like not a good day for me...feel not rili got mood since morning...laugh by frens somemore...ai...super moody....then juz now test..i had already wrote out wat i noe....but the teacher still dont belif me... -.- i only read 3 pages of tat chapter eh..she wan me how o??i show her i rili got read n memories it but she dont belif...wat the...am i rili tat bad???

then come home scold by mom again...juz bcoz i DUNNO im the one have to help them phone the astro to add package....then i had said 'none of my business'... -.- actually tat rili none of my business wat....i never do tat b4 de...dunno y when i wan call astro she scold me again...wan me how??dont help then scold me...help scold oso... -.- it seems like wat i had done is wrong...i wonder wat am i to them?? -.- hopefully tomolo will b better~!!

2006-04-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

walau...last week happened many things eh...phew~!

last tuesday...im open hamster!!!!so scary eh...i dont even dare to catch those hamster eh...coz very geli o...need kiwi help me catch it(so pai seh neh ^^")....after tat we have to pin it on the board...i oso dont dare to do it eh...but i have to do oso...haiz...but luckily my kiwi got jia you to me... ^.^ then i success...hehe...then i start to cut the hamster's skin lor...>.<>.<

last thursday...tat kiwi scared me eh... >.< during math period...she feel wanna vomit...then i accompany her go toilet lor...but she cant vomit out eh...then we planning go back class lor....but half way she feel wanna vomit again then we go back toilet again...but tis time she still cant vomit out eh...aiks...i think she sure very suffer...then we wan go back class again...but~!!!!! we ngam ngam come out from toilet then she wanna pengsan... -.- luckily im wif her o..tis girl rili dangerous...i call her go rest(she sit in front of the toilet..lolz) and i go find teacher....but when i go back i cant c her....tat jaga toilet de aunty told me tat she go inside toilet jor...phew...i tot she kena culik o... ^^" i ask her whether wanna go home or not...she said wan then i go help her take sch bag lor...she go teacher office wif my other fren first...those teacher ar...very mean one o...saw student sick dont help oso de...then i accompany her go make a phone call...but her parents din pick up the phone eh...got other ppl wanna use again..then she let out the public phone lor...we planning to borrow a teacher's hp call again one...but the teacher dont wan...shit!!!wat teacher lai de...?i tot teacher should owez help student one?but luckily my physics teacher dont like other teacher...she fetch kiwi go home eh...she is a good teacher~!! ^^ hope kiwi wont b like tat next time....she rili scared me o...

2006-04-16T00:18:00.000+08:00

hmm....kinda jealous some ppl eh...they good looking , n their results not bad oso...cool rite...i oso wanna like them eh...but i cant... -.-

today chu call me n kiwi go out eh...wow...miracle~!lolz...but i dont feel wanna go out then rejected him...after tat steph call me again eh...hmm...i think they wanna go celebrate chu's bday eh...then i go ask my mom lor...actually i already told my mom tat i dont feel wanna go out one....but when i ask her...she scold me pula...she said is i go out dont call her MOM again... y wor...-.- then juz now after dinner....i din say i dont wan tidy up those thing ar...cannot let me drink water first one meh?but when i juz came out from kitchen...i heard me sis complain to my mom...said i dont wan tidy up... -.- sometimes they will made me feel stress eh..agghh...they r very very annoying~!!!!

2006-04-14T23:57:00.000+08:00

am i tat useless till they owez wanna scold me??they rili tat hate me meh??till i do wat i wan oso cannot??i already long time din go out wif joan already eh...like tat oso not song i go out wif her?? -.- im so suffer eh....owez scold by them....rili not feeling good..!!every time scold by them i sure cannot say anything de....y they can merajuk but me cannot???i dont have the rite to merajuk on them...but y they can merajuk on me???isnt it unfair to me..? -.- feel wanna leave tis home eh....but...haiz...they still my family...i cant live without them oso....

juz now went yam cha wf joan eh...they talk bout GHOST!!! so scary... -.- they said ums oso got ghost de....omg omg omg...if i go there study...mean i have to study wif ghost lor...yer...i dont wan o...later tat ghost kill me...like yesterday tat movie....yiak....my face b blue purple~~ =.= ugly eh..

2006-04-08T23:55:00.000+08:00

nothing to do ----> bored ----> feel sleepy -----> getting bingung = now my situation...hehe

who can write an essay bout it....after wrote can gimme b check...wakakaka

2006-04-01T22:47:00.000+08:00

i been scold by her again..everyday sure will scold by her...wat had i done???i din do any hurt her's things..y she wan keep scold me wor?like tis morning...mummy went sdk already...then suppose me n her do the house chores together....but i do all those things myself eh...did she puji me???no she din...but when i did nth wrong...she will scold me...like juz now..how i noe she wan use comp jeh?she din tell me...then i continue chat lar...mana tahu chat till half..she terus push the chair wif heavily..luckily not im sitting tat chair...otherwise i sure will injured..then i let out the comp lor...let she use...then i go inside my room...then i come out she still sit at the sofa there...then i ask my bro y din fast fast help her do it...then....she scold me again...she said she saw me like tis oso no mood wanna do jor...wat wor??wat had i done again???i let out oso wrong...dont let out oso wrong...want me how wor...-.- actually she juz wanna put some new song into her memory card...tat is very simple thing...

hmm....i think tomolo b4 go watch movie...i better done all the chores....don even let her touch...otherwise she will scold me dont help her again then complain to my mom...i don wan let my mom noe im argue wif her.... -.-

2006-03-31T19:38:00.000+08:00

well..today is march's last day eh....tomolo will b 1st of april...tis means stpm getting near lor~~!!scare scare neh....i rili failed my last test....i failed all subjects...tis is first time eh....since im kindergarden....rili first time fail all subjects...>.< i have to b more hardworking lor...

juz now i went to kiwi's house do the bio peka eh....we go those sell vege de shop buy vege eh...lolz...funny eh...2 so poh go buy vege...wakaka...beside buy vege we got buy keropok n ice cream oso...wakaka..tat experiment ar...dunno y still fail de...?cant c other colour...only can c red colour...=.=' use alchohol to do it oso like tat....use water oso like tat...hmm....mayb we had put too many red chrolophyll...tomolo have to go kiwi there do again eh...haiz...

2006-03-19T23:23:00.000+08:00

hmm.....i hate myself....!!!!!!!shit!!!!!!!owez cant help my fren when they got problem...im a failure ppl...im not valueble to live on tis world... -.- y the god want make me out??y he wanna make a useless ppl..??? -.-

2006-03-14T23:02:00.000+08:00

hmm...today i go shopping wif my fren eh...everything seem normal but actually it not eh...y ler...??

hmm....i wan how to talk ler...??okie...juz now...me ngam ngam arrive cp...i go eat lunch wif jerry...then when i have my burger till half...louise phone me said they wanna go take photo sticker first...but im having my lunch eh...so i call them wait me for a while lor...then louise,steph n huey ye go find me lor...but....my french fries finish by them...sob sob...aiks..nvm lar...then after finish my lunch me,louise,steph go the place where take photo sticker to meet others lor...but when i reach there...i saw chu like very angry eh...dont choi steph oso...i noe they sure got problem jor...haiz...tis couple argue neh...chu dont wan take photo sticker oso...haiz...i oso dont care them jor...couple de thing...need theirself only can solve de..

then i go play game lor...wakakaka so song neh...first is hii beh change token to play...me n hii beh vs louise n huey ye eh...lolz...but last last me n hii beh won...yay...^.^then the second time is me change token one eh...lolz...i invite chu play oso...want let him happy a bit...hehe...then me,chu n hii beh(control leg de button) vs louise,huey ye n tty(i think he is the one control the leg...wakakaka)...haha..tis time me,chu n hii beh won eh...wakakakaka..luckily after tis game chu ok a but jor...more happy jor...at least will talk to us...hehe...then we go cps bowling there meet others lor...coz they go play bowling while me,chu n hii beh play game...hehe..then i call chu go tam steph lor...at the beginning chu dont wan de...but steph go toilet very long jor haven come back eh...so chu go find her lor...when they come back.....they ok jor eh...thanz god...~~ ^.^ im so happy when i saw all my fren happy neh...means they found their partner n very bahagia...saw them...i feel very comfortable neh..altought i dont have...lolz..

after play bowling...we go eat lor...so cham eh them...almost 4pm only eat lunch...haiz....poor poor..after they finish eat then we go lepak cp lor...wow...damn tired neh...>.< around 5pm hii beh fetch me,louise n kevin go home lor....but....on the way go home...louise n kevin argue again...=.=' then juz now louise call me eh...she said wanna break up wif kevin...my god...plz dont lar...couple argue is normal de bah....hope they will b ok...dunno y ar...all my fren..i mean most of my fren dating...they will b owez stick together wif their partner in front of the public...but behind the public....they keep argue de eh...so weird neh...

2006-03-12T20:08:00.000+08:00

hmm...there r two bad things happened on me today...

first...i wake up quite early eh...coz need go help those tzu chi ppl collect those can recycle de things...then at there hor...me,kiwi n another lil girl in charge the cloth...the old cloth...we need choose only the nice cloth out...but tat lil girl r so mean...keep say me childish...shit...she very mature meh??very no manners oso...she tot im her maid ar??she call me do wat then i muz do ar??younger than me then i have to follow wat she said ar??did she noe me n kiwi elder than her??then she keep say those nonsence...so annoying...

secondly...i felt my parents even n my sis r so pilih kasih...they only care bout my bro...they give my bro all the best thing...even go study oso let him study wat he want...although tat course r expensive...but for me???they never listen to me...they wan me follow wan they wan...even at home oso...wat they call me to do...i muz do it...even im busy...i oso muz muz muz do it..otherwise sure scold me...but for my bro...??if he is busy???they will help him do...like now...my parents go out already...i have to wait till 9.30++pm only can eat dinner...where they go...??for my bro future lor...go for the seminar already...y when im form 5 they din go wif me...??tis had prove tat they more siak my bro...their only son...n me...im not important for them...izzit every parents on tis world oso siak son only...?daughter not human meh???

2006-03-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

lolz...tis is my new blog eh...the old one i deleted already lur...dont ask me y delete the old one..i oso dunno y i wan delete it...juz feel wanna delete it only..hehe...hope u guys will b more enjoy at here...^.^